Unconsensually, I'm fleeting away with time. Not by the way I probably should but hopefully faster. It's more unusual because it's coming so inherently into me. Not that I disapprove of it but it just gets weirder and weirder in a way. It's like being on period everyday. Emotions having a full roller coaster ride. Dealing with something or the other everyday on my own. Gaining a little pain by losing someone and yet feeling happier. Maybe, it's all dependent of how satisfaction is ruling me. I don't know if there's somebody in the outer world feeling the same, going through the same shit for it's really shitty. Shitty enough to ruin some things for good or for bad. This whole feeling is too complicated to be expressed but I've been too much in the shell others believe me to be in. Trying to come out of it is like taking a whole new leap ahead. Also, it isn't trivial. People I'm emotionally going far from are the ones who soothed me once upon a time. Likewise, people I'm going away with are the new center of my universe. The most appealing thing about the latter lot is I'm sure I never have to walk away from them. They're going to be the center of my universe until death do us apart and only if death succeeds to.
